I’ve always thought you were special to me. Both you and “Lolo”. And though you may not be able to read this, maybe at least allow me to read it to you out loud. Maybe you could hear me from there.
I just want to thank you “Nanay” for everything you’ve given me, everything you’ve taught me. I guess teaching really is your profession and it fits you very well. You were the one who guided me as I grew up. When mom was at work you’d be the one to fetch me up at school, and sorry “Nanay”, I cried one time when you came at school, because I wanted “Lolo” to be the one who’d fetch me up. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I do.
I’m sorry “Nanay”, I’ve always been jealous of my cousins, I’ve always thought that they were you’re favorite. Even if they were, I know how much you love us equally “Nanay” and I love you too. I’m sorry because there were times I’ve been a headache to you, I was a kid back then, now I’m not, but I’ll still be one of your kids forever.
I’m sorry “Nanay”. I should’ve been there. I should’ve stayed with you. I knew you wanted me there. You were just holding back because you knew that I was enjoying my stay here. I’m sorry. I should’ve taken care of you. I should’ve made you happy. You told me how you wished I was gay so that I could make you laugh most of the time. But still, I was one of your grandchildren who made you laugh the most. I should’ve made you laugh more when you were still here “Nanay”. I should’ve said goodbye.
Why “Nanay”? 😪 I’ve always planned on bringing a girl at our house for you to meet. Was I just too good for them? Or I guess it takes a lot for them to be reaching my standards? Also, you told me you’d attend my graduation. I always daydream how you’d hear me be called Cum Laude and get all teary-eyed. You did in my High School graduation right? I was planning on giving you the same experience again, only better. But I guess time hasn’t been fair to us. No matter, I bet you’d have a better view from there than here, right?
It has only been hours since you left and I already miss you. I guess there isn’t much I could do? And I guess I shouldn’t be blaming myself because you wouldn’t want that. I hope you’re enjoying your stay there. I’d be really happy if you are. Hehe. 😊 Thank you “Nanay”, for everything. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel bad. Goodbye “Nanay”. I love you. See you later! :’)